My senior year was jam-packed with one major event after another. I applied to 12 different universities, learned my fourth language, put on a culture fair which brought together over 300 people, and survived another year of higher-level classes – just to name a few things.
As soon as summer vacation started I immediately jumped into an internship with the ANCA-WR. The transition from high school to the summer before college occurred in a blink of an eye and I suddenly have a new set of responsibilities.
It is overwhelming to finish one chapter only to begin another. I understand that what I am feeling is nothing new and that everyone at some point goes through this. It is all just very mind-boggling. If you think about it, the work that I am doing shouldn’t be this stressful: intern three days a week, go to orientation and register for classes, and work on my project for the internship. But for some reason the mental battle between productivity and laziness, also known as senioritis, is ongoing.
Would it still be called senioritis? Or is it something else? The mental resistance to change and additional responsibility.
Throughout my life I have always been known as the “overachiever” and have surprised others at my ability to take on projects much bigger than me. I have always been one to pursue my interests, which consisted on a very broad scale of subjects, and I would take on multiple interests at once. Maybe with the introduction of the next step of my life, my tendency to “bite off more than I can chew” has finally caught up with me. At the same time, I don’t necessarily want to give up my habit of taking on many things at once.
I guess what it comes down to is the difficult transition from child to adult. Or even in simpler terms, the human tendency to resist change, and how at some point we all have to fully accept this change in order to successfully progress in our lives.
Being a part of this internship, I am surrounded with college students and college graduates, who tell their stories as to how they had reached this point of their lives. Thus, influencing this week’s blog post by yours truly.